My mama loves, she loves me.

My little princess is 3 months old, I can't believe it! She is such an amazing baby, so happy and smart. She smiles and interacts, its so much fun. Still challenging at times but all worth it. Her night sleeping is great - she goes to bed early - sometime by 6pm then she usually sleeps until 2-3am, wakes up, eats and goes back to sleep until 6:30-7am. Cannot complain about that!  Naps however are a whole other ball of wax - she has to be rocked to sleep, and then when you manage to put her down without her eyes popping open she usually only naps for 35-45 minutes.  Needless to we spend a lot of our day working on naps.  She took 5 naps today.  If anyone is reading this and has thoughts or suggestions - let me know!!!

Plus I think I am developing a neck/shoulder problem from holding and rocking her in my arms a lot. I tried switching sides but it doesn't feel right and its impossible to lay her down from the opposite way. I need a little Mommy Time - a glass of wine and massage would be great. Maybe soon? 

I'm so over winter and ready for spring which I can't wait for, so we can go for walks and enjoy the outdoors.  Well off to wash some bottles and straighten up.

xoxo - Mellycup.

The old me is dead and gone.

So once you may have been the life of the party - but the party will move on without you. Before I had Mia I was the crazy party girl who was having too much fun. And now my priorities have changed - Mia is my life, I am her mother, in the last year (being pregnant and having her) I've changed a lot.  Only problem is nothing else changed with me and I am feeling melancholy about that.  I was in Old Forge over the weekend and everyone was there, it was a little crazy with Mia, trying to keep a house full of drunk people quiet and trying to get sleep for myself.  And while I was there the partying went on and the laughs went on, and it was weird and really hard for me to deal with because even though I was there I was out of the whole loop. So basically I felt like I was sitting outside looking in on a party I wasn't invited too.  I no longer know about the inside jokes etc. Yes I am feeling bad for myself.  Now don't get my wrong, I LOVE Mia and I love being her mother and don't care that I had to change my life. Sometimes I just wish that the party world around me would slow down a little and remember that I was once part of all that and its a hard adjustment.

xoxo - Mellycup.